If the generals back in Na Trang could see what I saw, would they still want me to kill him? """"""""More than ever probably.
He broke from them. Then he broke from himself.I'd never seen a man so broken up and ripped apart.
.
"It's impossible for words to describe what is necessary
...to those who do not know what HORROR means.
HORROR. Horror... has a face. And you must make a friend of horror. Horror and moral terror are your friends. If they are not, then they are enemies to be feared. They are truly enemies.""
"""""""""I remember when I was with Special Forces...
""""""""""...Seems... a thousand centuries ago.
""""""We went into a camp to innoculate the children.
""We left the camp after we had innoculated the childrenfor Polio, and this old man came running after us.
""""He was crying. He couldn't see.
We went back there, and they had come and hacked offevery innoculated arm. There they were in a pile...
""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""A pile of little arms.
And I remember... I... I cried, I wept like... some grandmother.
I wanted to tear my teeth out. I didn't know what I wanted to do.
"""And I want to remember it. I never want to forget it.
"""""""""""""""I never want to forget it.
And then I realized they were stronger than we. Because they could stand that. These were not monsters... These were men... trained cadres... these men who fought with their hearts, who had families, who had children, who were filled with love...
You have to have men who are moral... and at the same time,
who are able to utilize their primordal instincts to KILL.
"""Without feeling... without passion...
"I worry that my son might not understand what I've tried to be. And if I were to be killed, Willard, I would want someone to go
to my home and tell my son everything.
Everything I did, everything, you saw... because there is nothingI detest more than the stench of lies. And if you understand me, Willard, you'll do this for me."
